Better now

The swelling seems to have gone down, my temperature is up, and I gave myself a time-out for my childish behavior. I am feeling more adult now. I am afraid to be hopeful that this temp increase might mean that I ovulated on my own. I will have to wait a few more days to find out. Until then...

FYI

When your ovaries are the size of lemons it makes you feel fat.
Ugh. The buttons on my pants are not happy.

The doctor said: clomid + me = not good. So we have to try something new. The problem, well its not really a problem (except for my phyche) is that I have to WAIT. I hate waiting. Especially when the thing I have to wait for is my stupid ovaries. We all know how reliable they are. I have to wait and see if I ovulate on my own (yeah, right) for the next 3 weeks. If not, then another ultrasound and provera to start a new cycle. The starting the new cycle is a good thing but 3 weeks + 2 weeks of taking the pills + a week of waiting for my period to start after stopping the pills puts me well into August before we can try something new.

I am trying to be positive. I am trying not to be an impatient whiney brat, but I WANT THIS TO HAPPEN NOW!!!! Ok, so I am not trying very hard, but I am in self pity mode. Waa.

Now what?

I dunno. I talk to my doc again on Tuesday and I think we wait for this overzealous cycle to wear itself out and start again next month. With a different drug.

However, The fact that my ovaries seem to be up to the challenge is a very good sign!

Down Girls!

Ya'll are not going to believe this one. Yesterday I was hoping and praying that the clomid worked and that I would have a couple of follicles with egg-potential. Yeah...be careful what you wish for.

I was very very close to being on the evening news, the front page of the newspaper, or Ripley's believe it or not (yes, I am THAT big of a freak).

Why do you ask???

Because I had FOURTEEN follicles!! FOURTEEN, people! Seven in each ovary. I DO NOT want 14 babies. Would that be fourteenuplets? Very Scary.

My ovaries must have been inspired by the world cup soccer that I have been watching and thought they would have their own tournament. Can’t you picture it? Team right ovary vs. team left! Yikes!

However, I am acting as referee and pulling major red cards. There will be no shoot-out in my uterus thankyouverymuch.

Didn’t think I would be saying this for a while, but I am off to buy condoms. LOTS of them. Later.

still swinging

Things I have cried over in the last week: Newspaper article mentioned above, Sex and the City rerun, various country music songs, and one of the baby birthing shows (remind me not to watch those anymore). I also went to a wedding on Sunday and forgetaboutit, I was a crying mess! Although, after reading some of the potential side effects of the drugs (i.e. PERMANENT vision damage) my sappy crying bouts were nothing.

I am done with the clomid for now and have to wait until Thursday's ultrasound to see if it worked. Cross you fingers for me!!!

I am a little worried about Thursday because they are also looking at the lining around my lovely uterine septum and if they are not happy with the way it is growing then I have to have surgery. Yuck.

SO, on Thursday we are hoping for responsive ovaries, a couple of mature follicles, and a nice comfy lining for a 9 month nap. I'll keep you posted!

Sappy

Two days on the drugs and I haven't become a bitch yet (well, any more than usual). I did get a sign this morning that the drugs may be turning me into more of a sap. I was at the coffee shop with hubby and reading the newspaper when I read an article about a 98 year old women who graduated from high school. Two days ago I would have thought "you go girl" and turned the page. Today I got all teary eyed and was having all sorts of "that is just the sweetest thing I have ever heard!" thoughts. (with a "bless her heart" for good measure). I mean, it is great and all, but that is not normal for me. Should be an interesting week.

I have 3 more days on the crazy pills...stay tuned for more mood swinging :-)

FINALLY!

I have the drugs!! I have the little orange bottle right here in my hand! No one can take it away from me. I even have the go-ahead from the doctor to start taking said drugs...TODAY! YEAH!!!!!!!!!!! I am sooooooo happy to be doing something other that tests, tests, and more tests. Ya'll, I might even have a 30 something day cycle this month. I am thrilled (an clearly I am easily amused), but I feel like this is a big step in the right direction. Look out ovaries! Your days of ruling this body are o.v.e.r. Clomid's in charge now, HA!

Hello again

I did not intend to take such a long blogger break, but life has been a little crazy. Now I have graduated (Yeah!!), and finished playing tour guide to my parents who were in town. Now all I am left with is peace. Aahhh. Back to blogging. I have missed you.

Updates: AF and I are enjoying the peace. I will probably be seeing her more often so better get used to her presence. The surgery verdict is in. I have chosen to wait and see before going under the knife. If I miscarry (assuming I can get preg) then I will revisit the possibility. As of now, I have Clomid Class on Monday!! I will be diligently taking notes Monday afternoon and hopefully popping pills by Tuesday. A few days and a few ultrasounds later, I get to give myself a big shot.

Does anyone know if the rumors about Clomid are true? Will it make me a crazy woman? If you notice my blogs are moody and emotional let me know so that I can blame it on the drugs. I wonder how much BS my hubby will take from me if I blame it on the drugs? Major shopping sprees? Ice cream for dinner? Hmmm…maybe I can work this to my advantage.