Friday, February 10, 2006


So the other thing the NP said at my visit is that this could possibly be caused by stress. I think maybe there is some truth to this, and people keep telling me this (which is not that helpful). Hubby's advice was "stop stressing out about stuff" (REALLY not helpful). So I have been trying to figure out if I believe this is true and how much I can realistically do about it.

I am in grad school but have 1 class and can do the rest of my work from home, in my PJ's like I am now. I have a job but only work max 10 hours a week, and don't have any other life stuff to stress about. Everyone is happy and healthy. That combined with the fact that I took off 3 weeks over the holidays (no school, no work, no nothing) and still have f'ed up cycles tells me that either this is not ALL stress realated or I am going to have sit on my butt and do nothing in order to get pg. I think that would cause a different kind of mental strain- aka-boredom.

I am graduating soon and supposed to be looking for a job but I go through this daily argument with myself "this Pg thing could take a while and I have some great opportunities presenting themselves. so I should get a job" OR " I should focus on this pg thing, eliminate stress, keep my very part time job and not get a full time job". I am not sure I am capable of this! I LIKE being really busy. I am also having trouble with the "housewife" designation, mostly guilt about not contributing to the household. I feel like I should be DOING something. FYI - I am TOTALLY OK with the stay-at-home-mom designation, but what am I supposed to do in the meantime??

Can you tell I am struggling with this issue?

Thanks for listening.

1 comment:

Becky said...

I had a somewhat similar quandry. I had some "stuff" I really needed to work though before I got pregnant. As such, I didn't want to get a full-time job as a teacher since, it's difficult to quit mid-year and I wanted to focus on the "stuff." At the same time, I didn't like having people ask me what I did and answering "oh, this and that." So, I became a substitute teacher and took on some volunteer work. This allowed me to have a really flexibile schedule but still manage to feel like I could answer questions about "what I did" more comfortably.